Long Time AWOL

I figured it was about time I updated this blog.

So, it's like that scene in The Wizard of Oz where the happy characters get zapped by the Evil Witch of the West and turned to stone- freezeframed for the time being...

And to be honest I seriously miss my craft...in particular the delicious mental candy it provides in the way of mystery and puzzles and encountering people from all walks discussing their most gory and personal moments...

So, I'm hoping I'll get unfrozen soon so I can zap more TCM magic far and wide through the Land of Oz Yet!!!

Anybody able to loan me a pair of shiny magic ruby slippers?

10-10-9

Unpleasant Awareness

I think the one thing I have really had my eyes opened up to in the healing profession is the frailty and vulnerability of the human condition both physically and mentally.

It's been really hard to come to terms with having stepped out from behind a shield. I never entertained the idea of doing western medicine cos I wanted to avoid having to deal with that whole life and death thing day in day out...but the whole idea is still managing to penetrate my psyche far more than I ever expected it too...I guess this is also part and parcel of growing older.

I preferred the Bubble.

2010-6-3

First Drafts

I've resorted to passing up almost first drafts...I just got to a point where I thought...is it worth staying up all night? Does being a good student have any correlation to being a good practitioner in practice? No, not always...and that's why I'm fine with it! But geez...let's hope I pass so that I can actually legally practice!

2010-5-30

I am looking forward to...

the day when this blog ceases to exist or it converts its title to "The Joy of NOT Being Any Kind of Student".

2010-5-29

Avoidance-Denial

You know how sometimes you know you don't want to get out of bed as you'd rather not face the big mountain of stuff you have to/face?

Yeah, that's me right now.

I hope I find some motivation and productivity soon.

It is so anti-intuitive to have to keep pushing the envelope when you're so exhausted and sleep deprived! Whinge whinge whine whine...

Zzzzzzzzzzzz

2010-5-26

Top Gear

Up down turn around, please don't let me hit the ground...

Well it's rolled around to that time of year again folks when life gets crazy and stays sustainedly crazy so that you have no choice but to glue your butt to the chair and somehow still pull something to submit out of your ass! Obviously, not an easy double feat.

In any case two more mini suckers down so I can start to visualise and plot how to wrestle with the big Dragons.

I'm happy though that it's finally gotten dire enough that I was motivated enough to actually kick into action...Basically, today I did not move from my chair for umpteen hours straight...I hardly think this is conducive to good health-the irony! And did I mention I was in my PJs for probably 24 hours straight....ewwww I know...but warranted.

2010-5-23 19:56

Compassionate Detachment

One of the things I've been learning the hard way is that being a healer or rather "healing facilitator" comes with many rewards- well mainly just one (that of satisfaction in having helped another) but also many challenges.

Soon enough along your journey, especially if you are sensitive you will find yourself really having to protect your own energies etc from psychic vampires and spiritual attack.

Here is a really nice eggshell exercise which I've found.

Also I think the phrase "compassionate detachment" should always be remembered everytime you enter into an "energy transaction" with a client.

Also pets and nature really help, babies too- sources of pure clean uncorrupted good energy.

Oh and of course God and Angels. Ask for their help!

Have a good day^^

2010-5-22

Burnt out by 45.

Well I'm not even close yet but that is exactly the warning given me by one of my majority of older than me patients...

I think one of the real problems of being in the healing thing is that you give and give and give and give and rarely do people ever give to YOU! And thus....drained, sucked dry- just like that sound made when people suck out the marrow from bones.

I think that perception I get from movies is true...
Every healer needs their own therapist. Cos we listen to everybody else's crap and have nobody to dump our crap on!!!

In any case this has gone on for such a long time. I guess professionally it's justified but personally I think I need to put my foot down...only give to people who give to me! Sheesh I think even my natal chart described this- that my luck in these matters aren't great- very skewed and one sided...eg people just always take from me, and I'd be doing well to get anywhere close to an equal give and take bar a few rare cases!

10-4-26 11:54

I made a Girl CRY.

But it was a good thing. Too many of us hold in and repress our emotions. And it's healthy to let it all out with a Good CRY every now and again.

In any case it was really cute when she reported with surprise the strange reaction induced by the needles. No wonder people still regard acupuncture as mystical and magical...unfortunately it doesn't help our case with the "scientific" Skeptics...

To be honest though, hailing from a somewhat conservative and "rational-logical" upbringing, I must say, no matter how long I do this, the results do often blow my mind and leave my mouth wanting to hang "O-shaped".

Sometimes, you just can't think too much- the Mind in itself can really be quite limiting, as there are many things the Human Mind is just too pip-squeaky to fathom!

2010-4-17

How's this for HIPPY?!!

I'm not sure but sometime recently I pretty much become incredibly "Feeling-VIBE" based...Basically, I don't look or talk to someone to work out whether I'm gonna like them or not...I just "feel" their energy...
Yep, that's really how I judge people now...LOL

2010-4-13

Hands That Heal

It's amazing how healing hands alone can be. Touch. People often forget that all of us have the power to heal just with our hands alone. It is amazing sometimes what strong responses I get inadvertently just with my hands (usually when I am preparing for needle insertion with palpation). I have been told on several occasions "You have magic hands."

I think we all do, really. Especially if there is good intention.

2010-3-18

...

Okay this working for a living gig is too hard. Would someone just find me a SUGARDADDY already?! :P

2010-3-11

Ms "Last Resort"

I know for many (as was for me), alternative therapies only become options out of "Last Resort".

Still though, my teacher said to me "why do you always have such complicated cases?!".

I guess I love mystery and solving puzzles. And I only tend to be good at what interests me.

Not to mention I AM complicated. And like does draw like :)

2010-2-25

Terminal Illness, death and dying.

In a way I came face to face with this today. And it was not how one would expect. She was not gaunt or sick with pallor- her cheeks were ruddy, she was in good spirits and her eyes still had a bit of sparkle...

But we both knew.

There is something Incredibly Dignified about Quiet Acceptance. I was glad that in her Peace, I could feel at Peace. As I touched her hands and our energies merged, I couldn't help but shiver though.

I also got completely sapped and knocked over...and felt completely sick and headachey and even hand washing etc didn't help- actually it was like I had been entirely wafted in a boggy cloud- I couldn't think, or do anything. This is why I really need to be more careful about properly protecting my aura. But really I didn't expect to encounter such a case in my practice.

In any case, the moral of the story is "a stitch in time saves nine" and that is the beauty of Chinese Medicine...it is about prevention and maintenance of good health not trying to patch a hole only once you notice it. By then, it's too late!

2010-2-12

"I feel like Barbie"

Well I don't. But that's just what one of my patients feedbacked from my treatment. I always love hearing feedback but yeah this comment "I feel like Barbie! It's like you gave me a new pair of legs!" That's GOTTA be one of my ALL TIME favourites! LOL

In other news...by the type of patient I seem to energetically attract I'm starting to notice where my specialities may lie...it's kinda cool. I'm also getting great results. And despite being a social retard the patients like me enough to keep coming so YEAH in my third ever public clinic I am now fully booked out and even had to turn a patient away! :( :)

I like it.

2010-2-11

The Girl is Evil

Today, for the first time in my acupuncture career I almost floored a full grown man with 1 needle. And not a weenie piddly skinny man but a big bulky ex football player!

Needless to say, we were both SHOCKED.

But anyway, it was seriously interesting. He said we should have taken a video for people who think acupuncture is just "placebo" with no effect, cos there is no way anyone could fake THAT! (Vasovagal reaction).

Anyway now I know. Like I always suspected Men ARE the weaker gender. I made voodoo dolls out of my female patients all week and this guy...wow, almost passed out from 1. Amazing. You really had to be there to see it.

Anyway I'm glad we'd covered this very rare reaction in theory cos I've never EVER seen it happen before: I remembered studying it so luckily I paid attention in classes so knew what to do...cos this happened at my home...and honestly if I didn't react we would have been calling an ambulance! Luckily it was a friend's hubby and not a paying patient- I think they would have been so freaked out they would not have wanted to come back! LOL

p.s it's actually evidence of a huge amount of stagnated energy shifting, so in a way, it's actually a very positive healing reaction :) Go me! Hehe, I am to be feared by Big Grown Men- love it.

2010-2-7

WORTH IT.

Despite all the suffering and sacrifices...I'm finally at the point where I can realise the "worth it" part...I meet people who have been sick like me, but for much longer yet they are still so lost and in despair. I am so glad I can give them hope and relieve their suffering. Although to be honest, we still all spend a good 70% of our spare waking hours doing health oriented things- keeping in good health once sick is seriously a full time affair- people have no idea how limiting this is on your ability to do things-they just assume you are a party pooper...but actually it's just about comfortable survival-unless you have a zillion dollars and can hire maids and chefs etc...we can't eat too much crap e.g takeaway etc cos this will make us sick, we also need to be very careful of overexhaustion or we will crash...bigtime. And all those bugs you bring to work in order to "soldier on" well stuff like that could land some of us in hospital! So yeah it's always a fragile and delicate balancing act with a lot, ALOT of conscientious effort and mental willpower involved on a daily basis.

In any case, not only have I benefited big time from learning the tools of my trade in order to stabilise and improve my own health to a manageable condition, it gives me great satisfaction to be able to help others get off the hamster wheel...

It is so good when you can reclaim your power and your life is in your own hands. Knowledge is Power.

2010-2-5

Protecting Yourself

Takes a lot of effort. I know I have at least two big and complex cases...so I get up early to take advantage of the Abundant Yang Qi for morning qigong and yoga and to strengthen my aura. I know I need to eat properly, so I cook rice.

I know I will be dealing with sappy bad energy...chronic, sick...

So I choose the correct crystals, fill my pot of alkaline water, take some supplements, pack some snacks and will later put on some Hauschka over my vulnerable auric field and some special oil at special points. Besides this I will be careful to mentally keep a boundary and wash my hands up to my elbows immediately after each encounter.

When I come back, maybe I will need to soak in an Epsom Salt Bath...see, I wish I lived right next to the beach already...

2010-2-3